27 January 2015

martha y mary: part 2

Here are my passages again:
As Jesus and the disciples continued on their way to Jerusalem, they came to a certain village where a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home. 39 Her sister, Mary, sat at the Lord’s feet, listening to what he taught. But Martha was distracted by the big dinner she was preparing. She came to Jesus and said, “Lord, doesn’t it seem unfair to you that my sister just sits here while I do all the work? Tell her to come and help me.” 
But the Lord said to her, “My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details! There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her." Luke 10:38-42 (NLT)
"Six days before the Passover celebration began, Jesus arrived in Bethany, the home of Lazarus—the man he had raised from the dead. A dinner was prepared in Jesus’ honor. Martha served, and Lazarus was among those who ate with him. Then Mary took a twelve-ounce jar of expensive perfume made from essence of nard, and she anointed Jesus’ feet with it, wiping his feet with her hair. The house was filled with the fragrance.John 12:1-3 (NIV)
Alright, time to dig in. Rather than ignoring or dismissing this story, as I've done for years, I'm going to attempt to actually hear something from God about what it means. And really receive it, deep in my heart and whole and self.

It seems that the whole crux of the first story is when Jesus says, "There is only one thing worth being concerned about..." Maybe the whole point of this story is not about being a busy body versus being in love with Jesus, it's not saying it's that what Martha was focused on was good OR bad. At this moment, he's not endorsing or condemning the desire to be productive and take care of the people around you. He's simply saying that there's something more, something worth taking a break for, a moment to breathe and refocus. Because that's what he really says... That Martha is focused on the wrong things, not that she's doing the wrong things. Maybe if she'd been listening or thinking differently in that moment, but still accomplishing the same tasks, she wouldn't have been missing out on the "one thing."

So what is the One Thing?

Tomorrow. 

23 January 2015

martha y mary: part 1

I'm in the midst of a spiritual something. I say something because I'm not sure if its an awakening, or a struggle, or a stall, or a questioning... maybe it's some sort of puberty. That actually feels like sort of an accurate metaphor, because it's not pleasant at all and I'm discovering quite a bit about myself that I don't really like. That is for sure.

All I really know is that I've been dry for awhile. And I'm obsessed with being productive and a good steward and not coming up short and not owing anyone anything. I want to be a good investment for others - for my parents, for my husband, and definitely for God. I know it was 100% a gift, but BOY, is he going to be glad he redeemed ME.

After several cumulative hours of late-night discussing and monologuing and arguing with my husband (who is the opposite of me in all ways) over the last few weeks... he challenged me to read through the story of Martha and Mary in the Bible and journal about it every day for a week, just to see what God would say to me. I said in a very huffy voice, 'FINE, I will. But I hate that story.'

This was at least two weeks ago. 

Martha and Mary were sisters, and they were actually friends with Jesus while he was alive and walking around. If you do a search for them through the Bible, you can see that they pop up several times throughout the gospels, but there are two short stories where they're actually together, first in the book of Luke and then again in the book of John. Here are those passages:
As Jesus and the disciples continued on their way to Jerusalem, they came to a certain village where a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home. 39 Her sister, Mary, sat at the Lord’s feet, listening to what he taught. But Martha was distracted by the big dinner she was preparing. She came to Jesus and said, “Lord, doesn’t it seem unfair to you that my sister just sits here while I do all the work? Tell her to come and help me.” 
But the Lord said to her, “My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details! There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her." Luke 10:38-42 (NLT)
"Six days before the Passover celebration began, Jesus arrived in Bethany, the home of Lazarus—the man he had raised from the dead. A dinner was prepared in Jesus’ honor. Martha served, and Lazarus was among those who ate[ with him. Then Mary took a twelve-ounce jar[b] of expensive perfume made from essence of nard, and she anointed Jesus’ feet with it, wiping his feet with her hair. The house was filled with the fragrance." John 12:1-3 (NIV)
For my first post, I think I just have to get out of my system everything I already feel... that way I can make room for fresh insight. Alrighty then... I hate this story. Hate it! Martha was serving Jesus and the others in the house by making dinner and probably keeping things organizing, wrangling the kids, and a bunch of other stuff too. And if you read on, it kinda becomes clear that she is always more of the go-getter of the two and Mary is always more of a dreamy, super-emotional woman with a flair for dramatic gestures (aka, probably not too productive). Obviously, there needs to be balance... a woman needs to know how to get ish done, but not neglect her soul. It makes me angry that Jesus responded the way he did in this story because it sounds like he is discounting basic facts of life. People need to eat! Things need to get done! It's all well and good to sit around enjoying each other's company and listening to Jesus intently like Mary did, but if EVERYONE did that then everyone would waste away and die. And I'm pissed that it was chosen to be included in the bible, because that means that it's supposed to have a broader application than just that specific place, time, and group of people. I can't just write it off as a "Oh, that's just what Martha needed to hear that day and that time, but usually Jesus does appreciate productivity over or equal to simply listening to his voice."

I wish that Jesus had told Mary to get off her butt and help out, then the dinner would have been ready much faster and both Martha and Mary could've sat and enjoyed listening to Jesus teach together over a delicious meal.

Maybe I'll have something more wholesome to say next time. 

12 November 2014

some Anne Lamott on March 16

I read this earlier this morning.
And thought I would share.



An excerpt from Anne Lamott's book Operating Instructions, chapter March 16.

24 September 2014

enjoying right now... at home with a baby


I always wanted to be a stay at home mom. Like really, I was offended when people commented on how hard that would be in this economy or how long I'd have to wait... I remember one person (who I didn't even know very well) straight up told me it was never going to happen, so I should get over it sooner rather than later and just have kids. 

OOOOHHHH, the righteous indignation... But now I smile at the memory.

18 September 2014

our Tiny Cottage: itty bitty kitchen



The kitchen is DONE(ish)!! Cabinets are in, counterop is on, sink is in, water is on! All that's missing is the fridge, which won't go in until the floors are done. Here's the gorgeous mostly finished product.

12 September 2014

living a better story


I have read this book a couple of times before. Now I am listening to it on audible while I jog, which means intermittently for short periods of time over the past couple of weeks. A Million Miles in a Thousand Years is a thought documentary by Donald Miller, inspired by the process of turning his written memoir into a movie. It's really good. And I really like his writing style (it's easy to read).

09 September 2014

the man of my dreams!

Several people have made mention of late that it's been awhile since I've blogged. Anything. Forget a profound thought, I haven't even been keeping you up to date on our cute cottage, which would really only require a photo and a couple sentences. Easy right?

HELLO! I am a new(ish) mom, and that comes with a lot of interruptions and chaos (side note: how long do I get to claim that I'm still "new"??). I am still working part-time and often from home, which means that when I have some brain-space or free time to sit at a computer I feel obligated to attempt catching up on workload. We are still building a tiny cottage and I am a woeful under-contributor these days. We hike a lot on weekends because my husband works his tush off all week at work and on our cottage and putting up with me, so he deserves to have fun sometimes.... and luckily, he likes it when I tag along. I am generally trying to get in shape again, which means that there is always at least one more thing above 'blogging' on the official Hierarchy of Things I Should Do With My "Free" Time.

These are all the things that I have thought to myself when I feel bad about not blogging. They are pretty good/decent reasons, and they comfort me temporarily.

But let's be honest... and this is a bit painful for me to admit... the REAL reason I am not blogging lately, is that I am watching way too much tv. Netflix, really. Currently, House, M.D. to be specific. In all fairness, I mostly watch it while I am nursing Emery to sleep or working out at the Y. But I am on Season 5 already and it's only been a month or so, so maybe I'm cheating in a few extra minutes here and there. Maybe.